Wow, 7 months since I last posted.
In those 7 months, I’ve been super busy, which is why I haven’t written here much. There are other reasons, but I’ll get to that in a minute. What have I been up to? Well, let’s see, I became engaged, travelled to Ireland for an “Engage-moon”, planned our wedding in 3ish months, and got married. YEAH. You could say I’ve been busy.
I wasn’t focused on writing, my health & wellness account, or my health coaching practice whatsoever. I honestly didn’t feel inspired, it didn’t feel right. But I have really missed writing, blogging, taking pictures, and reflecting on life in general. Because you know what? It’s fun, I enjoy it, and I am passionate about it.
I think I forgot that, you know? I was caught up with all of the other “health & wellness” influencers out there and really found myself detesting everything they posted and began to feel like it was all so commercial and consumerist disguised under their self-imposed veil of “real-life, down-to-earth, sustainable, achievable” wellness. Excuse my language, but it’s all bullshit and I was starting to compare my life to theirs which is SO unnecessary and very unhealthy. So, I retreated. I thought that maybe this wasn’t for me. The market is so saturated with the same curated B.S., why bother??
But then, it hit me. I’ve never really wanted to appeal to privileged, wealthy, white women. (Because let’s be honest, that’s who the Health and Wellness industry caters to) Yes, everyone’s health is important, and yes even privileged, wealthy, white women have issues and need to meditate, but, that’s not where the health crisis is in this country, or in this world. It’s in low-income minority communities, impoverished middle-America, senior communities who can barely survive off of social security and medicare, third world countries, and uneducated areas with little, to no, resources. How do I make an impact, while continuing to make an above-average salary living in New York City with just under six figures of student loan debt?
If anyone has the answer, let me know.
As you can tell, I’m clearly having an existential crisis. I don’t know how to funnel my passion for food, health and wellness for all without volunteering in my free time (which I’ve done lots of here in New York), or taking a tremendous pay cut.
So, what do I do? I don’t know. Write about it. Maybe I’ll go back to school, maybe I’ll decide the pay cut is worth it, maybe I’ll work two jobs, who knows.
I believe in manifesting and speaking about your dreams because if they stay bottled up inside for too long, that’s probably where they’ll stay. They will become a secret that you have with yourself that you will keep from the rest of the world and they’ll never be realized because you were too afraid to pay attention to those butterflies in your gut.
Right now, my butterflies have not come out of their cocoon yet, but I know, one day, when the timing is right, they will fly.